#54 (dreams)

screams
   


                   screams


why

who is screaming

stop
make it stop

I wake sweat running down my back his arms about me I scream again and sounds escape my chest only wounded animals make maybe I am a wounded animal maybe I am the wound maybe I am the monsters in my nightmare I am




                                                             drifting





*Evyn

#53 (gentle)

(masterpiece)

hold her with a gentle hand

not because she is fragile

but because she is a masterpiece.

do not leave your fingerprints on her.

break her,

                 and bleed.

(wolf)

she will not be afraid to devour you

to swallow you in one mouthful if you prove to be shallow

she would rather drown in your depths

than stay dry in your shallows.

(warrior)

she is not afraid to fight for what she loves

and she loves herself

crafted herself under her own fingertips

when she swings

don't think she'll miss just because your lips met hers

if you oppose her

she will end you.

*Evyn

#52 (fear)

yes I am afraid

but fear is not dangerous

emotions cannot hurt you

contain the vortex
                             do not be swept up in the storm

                                                                     
                                                                          of your mind
but hold
and release
and learn
     
                  that fear is not afraid of you

nor should you be afraid of fear.


step onto the stage

bend the knee

raise a flag



                                                          and win.


*Evyn

#51 (happy)

I was sad
for so long
I felt that I was no longer allowed to be happy
but when I realized
sadness was not a due I had to pay
or a sentence I must fill
and happiness was not an elusive dream
when I accepted I could be happy
I realized
I was

*Evyn

#50 (love myself)

if I could learn to love myself
the way that I love you
I'd finally cherish my body
the way that it deserves.
I'd make sure that it was fed
and well kept and clean
and I wouldn't dare to hurt it
because it's special.
and if I could learn to love myself
the way that I love you
I'd learn to let the little things go
or enjoy them and celebrate
because flaws are important
and they matter.
I'd tuck myself in bed at night
and say I did my best
and that was enough for me
because maybe
finally
it is.

*Evyn

#49 (bleed)

Sometimes the only thing you learn from pain
is that you are still alive enough
to bleed.

*Evyn

#48 (amputation)

I wasn't wrong
they had to cut you off for me to let you go
bleeding out
would be easier than this
my room is made for me with you
the entire house has remnants of us
a whole
a singular entity
one mind
one heart
now a half
missing you
missing me.

*Evyn

#47 (roses)

roses do not lie about their thorns
but bloom as vibrant red
as the blood they draw
when you try to stop them.

*Evyn