#14

Warm tea
From broken mug
Soothes painful throat
And heart

An old man
knits hats
for the homeless
every day

A woman
shows a man
how to braid his daughters' hair
gentle fingers through young strands

Kindness in the sunlight
and the birds
in the feathers
and the song
and the broken eggs
in pieces

*Evyn
Ecclesiastes 3:11

#13 (Drummer)

Don’t try to look at my soul

Split in three pieces

Divided between the living

The dead

And the in-between

Magnets too similar to understand

Glued together in a heart that beats

Unsteadily and unsure of the next note

A childish drummer

Who keeps dropping his sticks

*Evyn

#12 (Dreams)

Part 1

Please, please wake me

Don't let me fall farther into this dream

I don't want to memorize the way your voice sounds when you say "I love you"

Or your hands cradling my face

Or your fingers running through my hair

I don't want to burn your eyes into my mind

Or your tenderness into my soul

Because I will fall too hard and never come back the same

(Or come back at all)

Part 2

Maybe I don't want to come back...

Oh if this is a dream, let me sleep.


*Evyn

#11 (Intoxicated)

They warned me about alcohol
Getting drunk at parties
Not remembering a thing
But they never told me I could get drunk off you
Your words, your touch, your existence
Remembering every moment
Going back for more
Fire sliding down my arms instead of down my throat
Kissing lips instead of glasses
So when they warn me about getting drunk
And I say I make no promises
I'm confessing that I already have
And who needs New Years
When I have every day
Or champagne
When I have
You


*Evyn

#10 (Panic attack)

You whisper in my ear

I gasp for air and listen

Promising you'll stay right here

Until the sun has risen.

I am just not strong enough

To explain my broken mind

Or expand upon "my night was rough"

But you say we'll be just fine.

I don't know why you picked me

But I sure am glad you did

Even though I'm strong, you see,

I am still just a kid.

When I see a flashback trigger

And I can't stop wanting death

You remind me that our God is bigger

And He made me with one breath.

So although I am not okay

And there's not much we can do

I'll be happy again one day

And it's because of you.


*Evyn

#9 (Forever)

Please don't let go.

I am no sand
I will not slip through your fingers.

I am not glue
I will not cling when unwanted

I am not dirt
I will not be shaken off.

I am just a girl in love
Asking if she can stay
Forever



*Evyn

#8 (Touch me)

Touch me, bend me, move me
Show me that you exist
And I
Under your fingertips



*Evyn

An update

My April got ridiculously busy, and between competing nationally (in oral interpretation of poetry!), getting sick, senior prom, and life in general, I wasn't able to finish NaPoWriMo. I'm a little disappointed in myself but also give myself grace because life happens. That said, I am still posting poetry and will continue to number them because I think it's fun and it saves me the trouble of titling them. :)
I hope you are all doing well! Don't forget that you can always drop me a comment or shoot me an email at alabamawriters@gmail.com and I'll get back to you as soon as I can. I love you!

*Evyn

#7

I didn't know I could feel like this
Caught in between two beautiful worlds
Made to feel special
But also torn apart

How strange
                     that beauty
Can be found
                   
                         in pain

*Evyn

#6

My back hurts all the way down to my ankle

From where I sprained it four years ago

It makes me limp when I walk sometimes

And people can tell there is something wrong

It made me wonder about my heart

How it hurts in the middle and spreads

And makes me wince every time I move

I wonder if people can see that I am broken

*Evyn

#5

My therapist says I'll be okay,

I'm not sure if that's true,

Because I really haven't told her,

How much I think of you.

I didn't tell her that I loved you,

Said we were just friends,

Didn't say I threw up crying,

When we came to the end.

My therapist says I'll be okay,
One day it'll all be fine,
But I don't see how it can be,
When you still aren't mine.

*Evyn

#3 and #4

#3

Snap
Whir
Tilt
Snap
Whir
Tilt
Stand
Turn
Snap
Tilt
Adjust
Snap
View
Shake head
Smile
"You're beautiful"

#4

Butterfly on a branch,
Or my arm,
The same.
Butterfly on the bark,
Or my skin,
Your name.

#2

You breathe softly,
In
Out

Your lungs expand
and contract
in time

Your blood flows
to carry life

Your heart beats
steadily
at peace

You turn to your side
feel his body next to yours
and smile in your sleep

You body cares for your soul
But your soul does not care for your body

You only hate yourself when you are awake

#1

Are...are you sure you won't leave?
You aren't going?
You aren't gone?

I creep from my hiding place inside my rib cage wall
unsure
if the heart
is to be broken


again.

National Poetry Writing Month

National Poetry Writing Month is HERE and it's my first year to participate! The challenge is to write a poem every day of the month of April - 30 poems in 30 days. Eep!
I'm going to try to post my poems every day but I'll be gone for a week, so I'll probably post all of that week's when I get home :)

Are you participating in NaPoWriMo? Drop your ideas and websites in the comments! :D <3

May your pens stay sharp!
*Evyn

Music

I wish I could write the way music feels,
Sliding over the skin,
Into the heart,
Patching up holes.

*Evyn

A Work in Progress

I was too busy putting people back together

To realize

I

was broken too.

*Evyn

Poetry

Words do not make sense like they used to,

They no longer rhyme as they flow from my fingers,

The meter is off and bland,

And sometimes a sentence lingers.

I think my poetry started breaking when my mind did,

How can writing be rational when the brain is not?

I write erratically and dangerously,

And I'm no longer sure when to stop.

*Evyn

Pain

Someone once asked me

Why my poetry wasn't what it used to be

And I said it was because my style had changed

But what I meant was

I have changed

And no longer know how to rhyme

And pain is no longer beautiful

It is just pain.

*Evyn

If You Fall In Love

Please don't worry, darling,

For if you fall in love,

I'll be right here waiting,

To show you you're enough.

Even if he leaves you,

And you cannot make a sound,

I will always be here,

I will always be around.

Maybe if I catch you,

Then you will finally see,

Someone will always love you,

And that someone is me.

*Evyn

Memories

I like to remember, I like to pretend,

I like to forget that we had to end.

I like to smile when I think about you,

I like to imagine you think of me too.

I like to wonder if you perhaps remember,

The time we spoke last, in early December.

If you could picture the look in my eyes,

When you told me I must say "goodbye".

I like to imagine you hurt as I did,

But my pain, like my heart, is forever hid.

I force my eyes from the letters you penned,

Before my gaze falls on the word "friend".

My brain is now full of fantasies fed,

And I flinch to remember,

It's all in my head.

*Evyn