#21 (purple pen)

I have a pen
It writes in purple ink
I use it in my journal
prescribed by a shrink.
I don't know why I like it
It's my favorite color but
That's really not a lot to love
I guess maybe
It's different
Beautiful
And almost empty.

...like me?

*Evyn

#20 (Hold)

Hold onto me

Fingers intertwined

Arms about my shoulders

My hands on your back

Who is falling

Who is still

Who is going

Who is gone

*Evyn

#19

You tried to die last night

Blood is running red

I haven't eaten in three days

and my butterflies are dead.

I wish that I could come

Cross a sea for you

But that's really not an option

And there's nothing I can do.

*Evyn

#18 (Reject)

1. Reject the idea you are not worth loving
    That you must deserve affection
    That kindness is currency you do not earn

2. Reject
    That's me
    Sitting on the outside
    Of fear, pain, and grief
    Numb to joy
    But smiles are relief
 
3. Reject
    Rejection
    And make
    An impression



*Evyn

#17 (Frighten)

I am afraid I am not myself

I am more afraid that I am myself
And I do not like
Who I am



*Evyn

#16 (Shine)

The sun

Is not afraid of clouds

Nor I

Of my own mind

For she keeps shining despite the darkness in front of her

And so will I

The clouds do not blot her out

Though block her from view of tiny people below

Likewise I will keep my light though dimmed 

And never will let go

*Evyn

#15 (Flinch)

Please don't be offended when I flinch
The first time your fingers touch my skin
Or pull away the thousandth time
You try to hold my hand
I do not have to have been hurt
To be afraid
Or burned
To fear the flame
For you are toxic
And love is catching.

*Evyn

#14

Warm tea
From broken mug
Soothes painful throat
And heart

An old man
knits hats
for the homeless
every day

A woman
shows a man
how to braid his daughters' hair
gentle fingers through young strands

Kindness in the sunlight
and the birds
in the feathers
and the song
and the broken eggs
in pieces

*Evyn
Ecclesiastes 3:11