#11 (Intoxicated)

They warned me about alcohol
Getting drunk at parties
Not remembering a thing
But they never told me I could get drunk off you
Your words, your touch, your existence
Remembering every moment
Going back for more
Fire sliding down my arms instead of down my throat
Kissing lips instead of glasses
So when they warn me about getting drunk
And I say I make no promises
I'm confessing that I already have
And who needs New Years
When I have every day
Or champagne
When I have
You


*Evyn

#10 (Panic attack)

You whisper in my ear

I gasp for air and listen

Promising you'll stay right here

Until the sun has risen.

I am just not strong enough

To explain my broken mind

Or expand upon "my night was rough"

But you say we'll be just fine.

I don't know why you picked me

But I sure am glad you did

Even though I'm strong, you see,

I am still just a kid.

When I see a flashback trigger

And I can't stop wanting death

You remind me that our God is bigger

And He made me with one breath.

So although I am not okay

And there's not much we can do

I'll be happy again one day

And it's because of you.


*Evyn

#9 (Forever)

Please don't let go.

I am no sand
I will not slip through your fingers.

I am not glue
I will not cling when unwanted

I am not dirt
I will not be shaken off.

I am just a girl in love
Asking if she can stay
Forever



*Evyn

#8 (Touch me)

Touch me, bend me, move me
Show me that you exist
And I
Under your fingertips



*Evyn

An update

My April got ridiculously busy, and between competing nationally (in oral interpretation of poetry!), getting sick, senior prom, and life in general, I wasn't able to finish NaPoWriMo. I'm a little disappointed in myself but also give myself grace because life happens. That said, I am still posting poetry and will continue to number them because I think it's fun and it saves me the trouble of titling them. :)
I hope you are all doing well! Don't forget that you can always drop me a comment or shoot me an email at alabamawriters@gmail.com and I'll get back to you as soon as I can. I love you!

*Evyn

#7

I didn't know I could feel like this
Caught in between two beautiful worlds
Made to feel special
But also torn apart

How strange
                     that beauty
Can be found
                   
                         in pain

*Evyn

#6

My back hurts all the way down to my ankle

From where I sprained it four years ago

It makes me limp when I walk sometimes

And people can tell there is something wrong

It made me wonder about my heart

How it hurts in the middle and spreads

And makes me wince every time I move

I wonder if people can see that I am broken

*Evyn

#5

My therapist says I'll be okay,

I'm not sure if that's true,

Because I really haven't told her,

How much I think of you.

I didn't tell her that I loved you,

Said we were just friends,

Didn't say I threw up crying,

When we came to the end.

My therapist says I'll be okay,
One day it'll all be fine,
But I don't see how it can be,
When you still aren't mine.

*Evyn